Movingon

backtoreality

2011-12-11T23:03:00.002+08:00

stupid shit is eating me alive from the inside and i can turn to no one to confide to. seriously no one has yet to make me become vulnerable to the point that i would pour every single shit that im feeling to her. fucked up point in my life. eq is negative now -.- cant even write on this stupid blog. i dun have any trust to put everything online where fuckers will read and laugh

BOOKING IN

2011-07-17T19:10:00.001+08:00

Hi, been long since i posted. Just to summarise my BMT period---AWESOME. I didnt have the cultural shock i thought i would have..until i came to SCS.. First day totally took me by surprise. I have a serious cultural shock when i got there, and totally felt moodless for the rest of the week..until friday.. BOOK OUT DAY. ya.. but after that im more or less able to adapt to it.. Alot more responsibility now.. and its like u can get confine for every single small thing that u did wrongly.

Now, booking in seems so sian.. having guard duty this sat so i will be booking out on sunday this weekend.. i need some help LOL.

STAY POSITIVE.

Tough times never last, but tough man do.

6daysmore

2011-04-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

6 more days to surrender my pink i/c. somehow i cant wait, somehow i can. ironic feeling now. LOL.

Anyway, went to watch Fast and Furious 5 with bro today and it was AWESOMEEEEE~

u know what? i hate silence. rofl. i rather on himym and not watch it than to off my computer and have silence.

USS!

2011-04-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

going USS tmr for the first time!! and i give this first time with my awesome clique! (mixture of sec and jc frens awesome RITE) amazing. My sec sch friends and jc friends are becoming friends!

Gonna stayover at christine's hse tmr too! kinda looking forward to it HAHA. a little bit of fun before we guys enlist.

Speaking of enlistment, GO IN, CUT HAIR, MAKE MORE FRIENDS! awesome. gonna endure the 1 yr 10mths with a bunch of guys which i know will be awesome as well makes me motivated to go in rofl. just wanna go in, and be myself (well the nicer part of me only) so that no one will hate me lols. i alrdy cut my hair quite alot.. cos its damn hot with long hair on yr head, and slapping ur head when running.

SO, this MAY be my last post til i book out. til then, stay awesome:D

homealone~

2011-04-24T21:29:00.003+08:00

im home alone for this coming week! parents went overseas for vacation, bro's in NS, so yea :(

Bored at home alone at night rofl. going in another 2 weeks or less. looking forward to it.

And my bro bought a PSP GO lolsss. siao guy. and he cant bring it in this week cos he say gonna be damn busy so, IM PLAYING IT! awesome.

himym marathon

2011-04-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

SPAMMING HIMYM shows now. lolsss. cos im super bored at home. another 18 more days til enlistment! kind of having mixed feelings.. like cant wait to go in and yet dun feel like going through the 1yr 10mths ordeal. needa stop eating all those joker food alrdy. or eat less. its tought :( started practical driving alrdy~ started off alittle rough.. but still quite awesome now. the only sad thing is that i cant get my license before i enlist.... but its ok!!! i guess.. OH WELL, BACK TO MORE HIMYM! byez

sunday

2011-04-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

HI! been gyming the past week, hope i will be rdy when its time for ns. Went to buy my watch today for ns! super chio de :D and i finally got a new wallet! fredperry~ the old one was a bit torn alrdy so have to change. Love my new wallet. and cheaper than expected. hahas. well, dunno what im gonna do the next week. maybe just more gyming. lols Daily ripples of success, over time, becomes a tsunami of success

ocs

2011-04-04T07:44:00.003+08:00

wts these 2 days i've been sleeping, and sleeping. i keep taking afternoon naps, hope it wont be a habit cos imma die in NS. and speaking of NS, i dreamt i forgot to bring my stuff to tekong! FOR 2 CONSECUTIVE NIGHTS. freaking dream just continues as i sleep, and pink i/c was in the dream ._. damn wierd. no chio bu:(

i wanna go in ocs!!!!! somehow i cant wait to go in ns, and yet, i dread the day i go in ns lols. irony irony irony!

Been training since friday, except ytd cos saomu! gonna go train again later at 9.30 with wl xw cy!!

k its been bored staying at home, so girls, jio me out? :D

A mind once exposed to a new idea never regain its original dimensions

alil update

2011-03-30T23:17:00.004+08:00

too long nvr blog le! some updates on my life! tmr will be my last day of work :D and today i just went for the smu interview~

The interview was totally crazyyy. well not that crazy, but u have to do a 1.25 hrs for a compo and compre! if ur gp grade is like D or less. Den i waited like 45 mins to register again for the interview. rofl the interview srsly. its like the prof give a topic (based on an article that we are suppose to read for the first 10mins) den we talk/ give opinions. the interview was like debate.. one vjc girl spamming me and the people sitting with me ( there are 4 ppl on each side) srsly hate her ttm. but i have to admit. she damn pro.

Lucky i go talk first, den at the back talk a bit more. but like bullshit de. sianz la. the more i think abt it the more i think i wont make it. anyway got alot girls no.! awesome. one is cckss! 1 yr older den me. but got bf alrdy. SAD. but still got her no. wahahahah.

tmr last day of work lo! and like 2.30 got rehearsal so slack!!! hehehehehe~ den its time to sleep til wake up naturally! i haven done that in 3 months. sianz.

the way we do anything is the way we'll do everything.

Lead without a title

2011-03-21T19:39:00.003+08:00

i just finished reading this book called Lead Without A Title. Truly awesome. inspiring book that i urge u guys to read it. This is the book that made me gave up DOTA, made me promise to write a quote for every post, gave me another point of perspective on how to live life, made me more discipline as a person. And, i realised reading books is awesome. the feeling of being inspired by sucessful people is indescribable.

AND TODAY AT WORK. was lousy. i know im not as proactive as i should be, but a large fault has to do with your attitude. I can only say dont expect people to change for you, dont always see it as others have to change. Sometimes, or rather, most of the time, its you who have to change.

victims cry 'why me?'. leaders shout 'it's up to me!'

thirst for knowledge

2011-03-16T19:48:00.002+08:00

I came to realise how much i desire to be successful in life. i know everyone desires to be successful, but it takes one to realise how much one is willing to sacrifice certain things in order to attain a certain level in life.

I deleted my games, cut down on doing useless things, read books, workout. I started to cut down on trivial things, and focus on what i think is necessary to succeed. At least i took the first step, and im proud of myself.

I didnt blog this to showoff. i wan all my frens to be moving in the same direction, tgt with me. we are shaped in our own environment. If my circle of frens have the same mindset, i will have that mindset too. I hope u guys are also having the thirst to succeed as much as mine. please cut down certain things that you think you would not gain or learn anything from it, LIKE PLAYING GAMES. but, its just an advise.

Hope my frens see this post not as a way of boasting, but a friendly advise, if u may, to start picking up urself and be enthusiastic about learning, growing.

what you do in the next 5 minutes determine what you will be in the next 5 years.

aftercamp

2011-03-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

SHIT I GO PRESS SMTH DEN IT GO OTHER PAGE. HAVE TO RETYPE!

today too lazy retype. try my best luh.

spent my weekends at cckss handling alc aka advanced leadership camp. superawesome, cos most productive camp. they learnt the most compare to previous leadership camps. can see that most have inner potential as we push them to their limits.

Celebrated dawn's birthday! go her house surprise her at midnight, which was a total sucess cos i plan one~~~ enjoyed the company and cake!

slept 13 hrs on sunday, cos too tired from camp, slept from 5.30pm-6.30am. ikr. Beat me noobs.

Sry the posts abit short. at first type very long one :(

Life's simplest pleasures are life's most precious ones

YAOZA!

2011-03-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

WOOOO! PASS BTT ALRDY~ sry dawn but im not taking btt with u~ wahahaha pink i/c and keane passed too :D awesome. Was just looking at time slots for ftt and practical driving.. den realised inside no money ._. LAME. tmr night go topup den book til pok:D

SO FAST! ALRDY at 2nd week of march. soon after, NS! cant wait.

haha went to NCC today, and i think i go there like be psychologist. rofl. oh well everything will turn out fine.

1 more impt thing. im going to delete..wait for it.. DOTA! and its for real this time. i realised what a waste of time it is.. when i could be doing something more of use to my life. Reading a book, exercising, chatting with frens, etc. i now know more than ever the joy of learning and realising that i have grown, even if its just alil bit a day.

Only the mediocre die always at their best. Real leaders are always improving- and raising their bar on how superbly they can perform and how quickly they can move.

P.S. i will try to post a quote everytime i blog, a discipline that i set for myself:D

Alvls

2011-03-06T21:01:00.003+08:00

Hi. Sry not been blogging these few days, busy with all the birthdays, outings, open hses, etc. K.

Alvls.

For me, i got what i expected, well, alittle unexpected as i did better than wat i tot i would have done. Awesome. my clique did generally well, and i know each and everyone of us have done our best. Now we are to the choosing which uni to go to, which course to study in.. its tough. however at least after going to the open hses, and asking people abt what we wanna know, we all sort of got an idea of what we are interested in, and what faculty offers us what we want. i now know i wan to go into School of Science(Economics) in SMU, and if possible, take a 2nd major in business, majoring in finance(probably). Maybe taking a Masters in the future. I dunno, but i realised studying is so much more better than working. At least for me. i need a plan B. Still working on it.

working tmr.. not the best way to start the day.. but at least gonna get breakfast with cy and wk.

K, kinda tired, so..til next time :)

busy!

2011-02-28T22:03:00.003+08:00

SO BUSY! last few days keep going out with frens~ go celebrate wl birthday, go smlgym bai bai, go take evaluation test (pass liao), go pitstopcafe with clique, totally rawks. of course few other secret stuff also wahahaha. And i finally finally felt better le. cos of HTHT HAHA:D

On another note, A lvls is coming out this fri! totally scared. im afraid i wont get the results i expect, but im more afraid of the clique breaking apart IF and only IF some didnt score as they would expect themselves, and well, jealousy got over their head. I WANNA SAY GUYS! No matter what score we are going to get, it has already been decided the moment we stepped out of the exam hall. Also, there will always be another way out. What matters most is the friendships we made in this past 2 years. Its more valuable than any certificate. rly. So i rly wan to just go out and celebrate after getting out results, but i know some would not want to. No pressure, just do what u deem fit.

AND I GOTTA SPEND MORE TIME WITH MUMMY! she has some work probs... but tell me everything le :D lol me and mummy got secret de WAHAHA.

himym:)

2011-02-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

just watched himym S06E17! Awesome, as usual. However, lesser funny parts already :(. Oh well, its nice actually, cos its finally getting to the serious part aka HOW TED MET HIS WIFE!

Anyway, these 2 days, i did stuff that i would nvr do in the past. for starters, i switch to another movie theatre cos the one i actually 'bought' wasnt what i wanted to watch. totally rawks. meeting new people, i realised im a super introvert! ok maybe too strong a word to use. im too passive. i need to be more outspoken! GOSH.

Sian i missed today's NCC meeting..SUCKS srsly. wanted to go so badly. In the end i cant even give my attendance. At least i went for a 30min run today. ran half of bukit panjang lol. super slow run. more like a jog. den after jogging i came home. my mum said," ur getting fatter alrdy ar! still say u got run?" totally demoralised.

TMR GOING TO CMPB FOR MEDICAL CHECKUP! its at like 1030hrs so lucky not too early. at least can sleep abit more :D den maybe after that i go gym or smth..if my muscles wont ache tmr rofl.

Oh well, lazy to blog any further alrdy, cos the blog-sphere is so not happening rite now.

WHAT A DAY

2011-02-20T21:50:00.004+08:00

today is what i called 'miracle day'. This is how it goes:

Woke up to send my dad to airport! me and my bro took the car while my dad and mum took the cab. SILLY RITE? NO! cos his luggage is too big and we are lazy to take public transport home. So we reached, and my bro had to take a dump. den we met our parents at departure hall and ate dinner. THATS WHEN MY BRO REALISED SMTH. he touched his butt, and said," omg my wallet is lost."

We searched high and low for his wallet but to no avail. We went to information counter to report lost, went to police station to report lost also..cos he has saf item in his wallet. he was like oh shit oh shit oh shit!! den me and mum just sat at lvl 1 chairs talking ROFL. well cos he was making the report and all..

THEN THEN THEN! my mum got a phone call. APPARENTLY a taxi driver which DID NOT DRIVE MY PARENTS TO AIRPORT called. HE happen to found my bro's wallet in the toilet and saw the address, drove all the way to my hse just to return the wallet!!! SUCH A GOOD PERSON! HES FROM TRANS. appreciate it to the max.

ITS LIKE FATE WANTS IT TO BE LIKE THAT.

crazy rite? :D

well the rest of the day was rather normal.. went to my grandma hse, den go queensway to buy running shoes but ended up didnt buy any.. instead bought the water bag that can carry like a bagpack. AWESOME. so totally gonna use it.

ALSO my illness is starting up again :( well just hope everything will be find tmr :)

im still dling secret garden... now it shows 20 more days to completion ._. i think when i dl finish it, secret garden would have come out season 5 alrdy.. FASTER DL!!!!

takeleave~

2011-02-18T22:18:00.002+08:00

lol today i took leave:D went to ncc today. alot of stuff happened... sian. this bunch of youngsters sometimes talk nvr think first.. NVM. Settle it on mon.

tmr going to take evaluation for btt. this time i rly study le la! fail den blame myself for not enough common sense liao......

and im going to fall sick soon. Throat is sore-ing up, head is aching up. godblessme tmr can go take evaluation..cos i pay the money alrdy ._.

AND CLIQUE! WHEN IS OUT NEXT OUTING? SO I CAN LOOK FORWARD TO IT!

busy!

2011-02-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

SO BUSY TODAY! KEEWEEKEAT! U TOOK HALF DAY! i ALMOST DIED LEH. lol actually also not cos u took half day. cos just nice the director kaopei=.= tell u at work. at 5pm, preparing my mood to go home, all my boss spam work on me. sianzx actually tmr wan take leave de but.. too much work! and i dunwan wee wee to die alone. WE DIE TRYING! ROFL

Looking forward to FRIDAY!! im gonna take a day off to spend with my laopa cos hes flying to China this weekend:( Welll spend the morning with him only lols. going NCC in afternoon :D so many highlights on fri! just cant wait. GOING SLEEP SOON! so i got energy to pia work tmr rofl. enthu sia ._.

AND CANDICE! WE WONT LEAVE U OUT LIAO LE!! CALL U PLAY MAHJONG EVERYDAY!

s.g

2011-02-13T22:03:00.002+08:00

went sentosa today with family:) well my family and 2 little cousins. super alot of people~ and it was suprisingly fun! seeing the attractions, going to 4d, the LUGE (orludge). and my 2 little cousins rly resemble me and my bro when we were young. They do all the stuffs that we did like 10 yrs ago at trains, bus interchange,etc. rofl im getting old.

Time to start training alrdy. its too near to enlistment. and moreover my medical checkup is like 11 days away. i dunwan to drop pes! at least i went gyming today. its motivation. now its habit that i need to forge. AND STOP EATING BAGUA NICHOLAS! one piece of bagua=5km run. ban from bagua!!!!!

Going to astons tmr with clique to sorta celebrate Vday rofl. thats the only option singles have now. NOT THAT I DUN LIKE THE IDEA OK. its better actually, cos i know we will laugh like retards tmr, cos we are awesome~

Watching secret.g ~ the female lead actor has beautiful eyes!

at last

2011-02-09T22:55:00.003+08:00

finally. went to see doc today and checked that my eyesight is perfect :D but the redness wont go away for another 4-6 weeks._. so yea.. cont seeing me in the red eyes til mid march or so. luckily today i went out til night, see doc, eat lunch, go ncc, gym, den slack.actually was going to go out with parents to river angpow today but we went in the afternoon, it was too hot, plus, nobody is there at noon._. so we decided to go at night. THEN after ncc, my parents said," we're tired" hence cancelling the outing. thats why i got the time to gym :D

Anyway, sry wk but im going back to work on FRI. i srsly start to hate the job lol. temps alrdy have to cope with so much stuff and its not that it has alot, its damn boring. see paper, see com. thats all. i got a job cos i dunwan to waste my time til NS but its a lame job. no choice gotta stick to it til end march. cos i promised. Then again, promise are meant to be broken :D GAH i srsly wanna quit.. can i?

eyesss

2011-02-07T13:57:00.002+08:00

took another 3 days off cos i just went to work today and my eyes was alrdy tired at 10am ._. besides im scaring the shit out of my colleagues. so i rather stay at home and rest.. maybe go and gym it out. eyes getting some discomfort :( hope thats nth but a fluke. Thats why i took half day today. i know im not supposed to be blogging but yea.. im spamming my eyes with 'refresh' eyedrops alrdy. godblessmyeyes.

rofl

2011-02-05T02:26:00.002+08:00

thats the word im addicted in using nowadays._. dunno why but i just like it. well a happy cny it is:D gambling with family & frens, laughing, shouting, getting all high over the anticipation of a single card is what gambling really is in this festive season. As we grow older, we dont rly care about the winnings from gambling, but rather the company, and the process of the game. When we laugh, winning or losing seems like a damn small deal. thats why i love gatherings, we reminisce, den laugh at how lame/stupid/ funny we were back then.

But life isnt like that. we cant go back in time, we can only move forward. Thats why we always think about the past. Reliving the moment even if it was just a thought. But the future is amazing as well. At least for me it is.

Im awaiting my enlistment, my A lvl results, wanting to plan my future asap once i've gotten my results. 10 yrs will be what im planning. I want to be company best trainee in BMT, get into OCS and achieve the Sword of Honour. ORD with pride and many many new friends that i will be bound to know in NS.

Career first, and i think i know what line i wanna go in already. not telling here of course :) Relationship will come naturally. And when that time comes, i will be ready for it, mentally, physically and spiritually matured to get involved in a relationship.

Of course, i wan to learn as much as i can, throughout my life. I start investing in knowledge, be it books or getting advise from experienced people. Some of u may think its lame, and of course this post is not to brag... its because i wan to take the step forward. Discipline will be my no. 1 priority now.

f&w

2011-02-02T23:03:00.001+08:00

happy cny ppl! sry so long nvr update blog le.. been lazy/busy. well at first is becos i went to do lasik last sat :) some of which i called to share the news but cant rly get through to all of them.. anyway~ my right eye looks like a oversized red contact lens lols. i have to wear shades to everywhere._. shopping malls, kopitiam, day, night. it was so boring at first, cos i cant use com, stayed at home whole day and lie in bed.. den, i called, text, went out to cure my boredom. den i suddenly got to realise my character a little better. i kept thinking abt it.. and wonder if 2 awesome people can co-exist with each other. according to himym its impossible(Barney and Robin) but i rly wanna give it a shot. no matter the outcome, i tried, i experienced and thats what matters. u know very well im talking about u lol, i hope. if its my wishful thinking, tell me straight away please, before it gets serious.

trying to get fitter! i wanna go OCS so badly. i dun wan to settle for the good, i wan to achieve the best. i need a change in my surroundings, the environment i live in in order for the to succeed. i need to step out of my comfort zone, and OCS provides that platform. i rather suffer now.

we scorpios think alot. 95% of it is redundant. (Truestory)

fire&water are enemies at first glance, but they provide the balance for each other.

morning!

2011-01-22T11:33:00.002+08:00

hi ppl. sry i dun feel like blogging abt taiwan cos its alot alot alot of stuff lol. rather i'll just say GOOD MORNING PEOPLE! HOPE U SLEEP TIL SHUANG YTD NIGHT! oops~ well dad's home.. and he bought a luggage full of new year stuffs. lmao rite? and im meeting my peeps this sun again~ woooooooo!! k im lazy to type anymore~ byebye:D

P.S. nice drawings:D

back to sgp!

2011-01-19T15:49:00.002+08:00

6 days in taiwan was simply awesome. with my clique=awesome-ER! the cold weather is like madness, ranging from 7-14 degrees. DANSHUI was the coldest, everyone wear til like only the eyes can be seen, at least i am hahahahaha. nice pics taken.. when it was the last day there we started to reminisce already HAHA. and i bought the luozhixiang book!! which is awesome! im reading a chinese book LOL super not me. but i actually understand wahahahahahaha. bought like the most amount of stuff in my life in a timespan of 6 days. i will definitely post more another day cos well yea im busy UNPACKING MY STUFF!!!:D

wedwedwed

2011-01-05T21:47:00.003+08:00

CANT WAIT FOR NEXT WED!!! going taiwan with clique:D hope i can see some celebrities over there like..RAINIE :D and more pretty girls woo woo~

well today was rather sad. i woke up, bathed, and realised i cant walk straight LOL. so i didnt went to work today.. stayed at home and i think i drank like 20litres of water =.= even my mucus is watery LOLOLOL went to sleep again at 4pm and woke up at 7.30pm gettin all better :D ready for work tmr!! going to sleep again later like 11 and i know u guys are thinking " u woke up at 7.30pm, expecting to sleep early?" DUH! cos im gonna take medicine thats drowsy :D

SRY WK today cfm do alot. will make it up to u

happy new year!

2011-01-01T03:41:00.003+08:00

welcome 2011! a bad year of 2010 has alrdy passed!! Many many events happened during 2010, more than all the other years and i could well say that it is the most memorable year yet! By memorable i dun mean good (Fyi). Its just that there are too many fked up things during 2010 that made us sad, pissed and fucked up. Throw them aside, grow stronger at the same time, and most imptly, STAY HAPPY! happiness is not only achievable by the love u are seeking! bear that in mind. happiness comes in all sorts of ways, multi-directional! so define ur happiness in ur own unique special way, and live life by it :D

1/1/11---> a start of a brand (and hopefully better) year for all of us.

Think of the people that thinks abt u, worry abt the people that worry abt u, love the people that love u. Dun do sacrificial love.

RESOLUTION: get fitter! LOL.

pissed

2010-12-31T17:47:00.003+08:00

pissed cos i type a whole lot of stuff on blogger den it gave me error. w/e when i got mood den i write.

work

2010-12-28T22:54:00.003+08:00

gonna start work tmr!!! its the same job as i did 2 yrs ago but i totally forget le.. need to re-learn everything :(

Well these 2days have been quite busy.. went NCC, go eat lunch with dawn and weilun, see doc..NCC took most of my time hahaa... and i like it. the lunch i had with dawn and weilun was super nice, talked so much that i drank alot of pepsi(cos we went pizzahut so free flow of pepsi LOL) and go toilet so much lolol. After lunch we saw zhiler and her face- swollen cheeks! cos shud pluck out her tooth.. made her talk alot cos thats the only chance shes ever gonna talk like her mouth is full of food :D

NCC was like shag cos stand wholeday..shout whole day..pei them march also LOL. but its still awesome cos its NCC.

WORK! been looking forward to it as i have too much time to spare these days... wont be sitting close to wk.. gg if dunno anything have to walk alllllll the way to his desk.. AND Weilun will be working at the same dept as me and wk!! NICE. i found my formal shoes and it like grow fungus or what=.= luckily easy to wipe off and it looks good as new! going to sleep now so that i wont be late & sleepy for work tmr!! TIME TO LEARN AGAIN!

MERRY XMAS

2010-12-25T13:26:00.002+08:00

hihi! merry xmas everyone! sry so long nvr blog le cos got nth much to blog lol. go look at other ppl blog also nvr update much.. super sian~ Anyway, everyone is working le, so bored.. wan play mahjong also cannot find enough ppl!!! And this year xmas nth much, nvr go out, instead spent my xmas eve at home tidying my wardrobe with my MOTHER. at least today morning went to eat bakut teh with my cousins at the coffee shop near my hse.. awesome. and i really need to cut my hair now.. its starting to irritate me again. Maybe i shud just cut bald like my bro, and den we would look just like what we did 10 years ago. Gonna go learn my driving soon, though i dun have a car to drive=.=

Well, on the last post i wrote that i wanna just focus on training and work. But i know what i really need rite now lols. and tbh im growing much into my own world liao.. soon i will be an introvert. i needa go out and speak to ppl! Anyway i had a great start on christmas day, as early as 2.11am lol. casual as hell, i loved it. relaxed, to say at the least.

im bored, can someone ask me out?

busybusy

2010-12-17T03:28:00.002+08:00

BUSY DAY TODAY! went to ncc meeting, den go register for driving but failed cos my eyesight worsen:(, go collect my passport, go beach road find ncc stuff but failed, go bpp to check eyesight and bought glasses(cost a bomb) bought dinner and some other stuffs. YTD my maid flew back home..time to learn how to do house chores LOLOLOLOLOLOL! Learnt abt smth today and congrats again! still shocked but (Y).hai pai tian xin still in my head... rainie so so chio and cute~ ASDAHDFFARWAS! OH YA B4 i forgot, VISIT MY BLOGSHOP!(well its me and wk,not sure if xw is in or not lmao) its sbm-shop.blogspot.com. DO SUPPORT!!!!!! Went to do blogstuff til 2am..tired but totally felt like i AM finally doing smth with my life LOL.going to work on 29th Dec.. so still got some time to spare :D too much time to spare cos i have no one to spend time on lols. probaby watch more shows and not forgetting to work out! im a noob at implementing song de html code in blog that dont need to press to start listening de so WK TEACH ME! or help me find the song HAHAHAHAHA.

main focus, work and training.( a little bit of play:D)

Hai pai tian xin taught me this ---> a super retarded looking boy can become damn handsome! OK IM JKING! its this ------> don't overthink, do what your heart tells u to, and not always ur brain. Only after going through obstacles after obstacles, you will grow stronger, learn that happiness is only given to those who fought for.
SO ppl(guys), be thick-skinned or should i say be brave enough to tell the girl u love how u feel abt her before its too late. Learn to let go when its the best for her/him, and not yourself.

kk gtg sleep liao 3.40am wts. nights readers:D

MARATHON

2010-12-15T21:18:00.002+08:00

25hrs of hardcore drama watching from ytd 8pm to today 9pm allowed me to finish 1 drama; 海派甜心! rainie is just so so so beautiful!! and show luo is damn handsome as well... and the 粉红顽皮豹舞 is freaking cute lol. as i watch the last episode, i yearn for more~~~ oh well gtg rest soon if not imma fall sick HAHAHA. should totally do this more often so we(clique) can talk abt drama series all day long!!!!

MSN buddy~ :D

GOING to sleep/rest/dunnolah byebye:D:D

HAI PAI TIAN XIN!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-15T04:35:00.002+08:00

shit now im super addicted to this show.. i know its 2009 de show BUT i just wanna watch it cos got yang chen ling:DD super chio bu! and xiao zhu the acting damn damn funny!!! im now still watching muahahahaha! all becos someone give me the website which has ALL DRAMA SHOWS! well taiwanese anyway.. anyway super thanks for the web! now i have smth to spent my time on le :D cos i only start work at the end of dec.. I KNOW DAWN WILL COMMENT ON THIS POST!!! hahahahahaha cont to watch~~

backfromcamp!

2010-12-13T18:05:00.002+08:00

as mentioned, the NCC annual camp ended today. was fun to get back into camping with the guys, also at the same time being exposed to new situations and teaches me how to be a leader. Everyone learns through experience, regardless of their role. anyway, i feel that NCC is the trigger point of my direction in life. through NCC, i learnt many things that others may not, and our mindset into making decisions is also now more rational and logical. w/o NCC, i wont be who i am now, knowing when to do what, knowing how to deal with the controllable and uncontrollable. Guys will be more matured once going through NS. although NCC is not NS, its fundamentals are not much of a difference. the cadets may not feel what i am feeling now, and may think that they might not get what they deserved. the seniors know everything, and whatever decision we make has reasons. Instead of saying i deserve more, ask what did i not do? how can i improve? learning and experiencing is much more impt, at least currently in your early years. Recognition is impt, do not look at it in a pessimistic angle. Recognition is for those who got it to be motivated to maintain of improve further, while for those who did not get it to strive harder, instead of blaming other factors and not asking themselves " what did i do wrong".

ANYWAY, going to work soon~~~ will be bored but luckily wk will be there also:D gotta have the money to go taiwan, gym, go out, find girl(LOL)<--- joke.

NSNSNSNS i rly wan to go in.

NS

2010-12-05T01:39:00.002+08:00

Bro came back from tekong today, after his outfield. Told me amazing stories, as usual.. makes me super excited to be going NS. Its really the place where we boys turn into man. My bro looks freaking buffed now, and totally not like before. Hes hella discipline, went through real hell.. cos i hear his stories in the army, and came back a different person. Guys must have a strong mental health to survive NS, if not terrible things will happen, like my bro told me but not good to say it on the net so, if ur curious, ask me LOL. Positive mindset will get us through every shit they can through at us.. so just do it. Hes became the person i look up to, pushing his limits as i type. im really proud to have this bro. Hes aiming for commanding school, which based on his stories seems that he can well achieve it. I will aim for the same, and follow his footsteps in NS. i wannna go NS NOWNOWNOWNOW!!!

Over~

2010-11-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

Finally.. 20days of torture and probably the most I will ever study has ended. And tmr starts the fun:) dunno whether I shud do certain stuff or not but i know this; no matter what decision u made, don't regret it cos at that moment, u wanted it the most. I decide to throw away certain stuff, stuff that has been in my wallet for 3 years, stuff that to ordinary people, it's worth few cents but to me, it's what money can't buy. I look at it, reminiscing what I was 3 yrs ago. Memories came to my mind, and it's good memories at least:) but memories nonetheless. Wanted to do smth, wanted to follow what my heart says.. But not for this time. No more can I ever turn back to being 16, no more can I stop what I did, no more can I give u any trust from me. I've sealed up from u, blocked it from u so that no more can I fall into the bottomless pit of heartbroken, pessimistic side of me. I wanted to call u every night, and believe me it was difficult not to do so. I keep telling myself focus on my As first.. But now As have finished. I have no more excuse left to stop me from contacting u. That stuff reminded me of ur handwriting, ur personality and character years ago, the reason why I fell for u. Now nt in contact for so long, I think I no longer know u, physical appearance I would of course know, but other than that I've truly lost ur image already. It's good thou, ex-es shouldn't come in contact again if either one of them still yearns for the other. That's my lesson from my first and unforgettable love. I threw away our tissue, I think u might have forgotten it.. So from here on, I will stop asking abt u, stop ignoring qns abt u, but I will still keep ur secret. Dunno if ur still looking at my blog but if u are, although some part of me still wants u badly, this will be the last msg from to u. Have a nice life.

True story.

Last day

2010-11-28T22:45:00.003+08:00

tmr= last day of As!!!! cant believe time passes by so quickly~ glad its gonna be over at 1515 tmr when the chief invigilator says," Put ur pens down!" and they it will be party time everyday~~ til i go to work on the 15th lols. And gotta start my training for NS!!! super enthu to go NS.. dunno why lols. still be busy after As, busy having FUN!~ asdjsgjfbasedjasbdasjbd i like what im feeling now :D oh shit haven bathe.. imma go bathe NOW LOL. catch u on the flip flop:) AND JY FOR THOSE STILL HAVING As TIL 2ND DEC! IT WILL BE OVER IN A BLINK OF AN EYE.

oh yes btw watched harry potter with my bro ytd..simply awesome :D except those who didnt read the book before will probably fall asleep at some point LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL kgtgbathecyabye

1/2

2010-11-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

Half way through one of my toughest moments in life. At least abt 18000 other ppl are suffering together with me :D Anyway wanna talk non-study stuff. Rather, i wanna talk abt poly peeps.

Most people say poly ppl dun wanna study, people go there cos the main reason is to study so much lesser. Thats not true at all.. My friend is in poly and hes like more nervous abt his work than i am. Thats why he 4.0ed in all sems, cos he got the willingness to strive for himself. Im just saying that Jc people can start studying hard 3months before the As and make it, but poly peeps have to study hard throughout the 3 years. Uni is not easy to get into. If u think a diploma is all u need in today's world, i cant stop u. But anyone will choose a uni grad over a diploma holder in the same course. Thats the fact today. So u guys still have time to work hard, wake up and get it together. Dont get influenced by peers who do not study and think," they never study ma, i dun study at least got ppl accompany, still got time tmr to do....." Its time to be matured now. u guys are regarded as adults already. So set ur priorities rite. Im not trying to dictate what u should do, its just u yourself know more than me how tough it is in a poly life.

Dont wait until the moment when its all too late. Bring that regret forward and do something abt it. tbh i dunno how u are doing now. totally clueless. i hope u know when and what to do, what not to do right now. Try as much as u wan in your teenage life, its true, but dont overdo it.

Less than 1

2010-11-08T20:27:00.002+08:00

Tmr= start of my A lvls. Time really flies.. At a moment I was in j1 orientation and blink blink 一下, A lvls right at my doorstep. Most nervous period of my life ever. We need to move. Fast, swift, and done. That's what we do now. But get ready, get healthy. I'm talking abt u:) so do ur best and let's get it over tgt! Woo!!

28moredays

2010-10-11T18:28:00.002+08:00

28 more days til As! finally felt the nervousness of it. i rly hope i do pull through. DELETE ALL DISTRACTIONS!:D also, dont get sick at this point of time..ample rest and consistent hardwork will definitely pay off. Do the possimpable :)

BTW, Grey's Anatomy is a nice show, those who like to watch doctor shows should definitely watch, although it has some romance in it but still, who wouldn't want to watch a bit of romance in every show? ha. but dont get addicted on it tyvm.

And rly, i will delete all distractions, if u know what i mean.

sustain

2010-10-07T18:26:00.002+08:00

i dunno if i have enough stamina to go through the final month b4 As..so i came here to rant. mock papers come and wack us like no tmr..motivations were told to us til i dun think its motivating at all.. ENDURE! bad results isnt the end of the world.

Anyway, aside from the sch work. i've been thinking, and now did i know i was such an idiot back then. Looking back now, and listening to Hebe's new album(Y), its just a stepping stone. Afterall, one has to go through being used, being disappointed, being screwed up part of life before we will nvr make it maybe on the 3rd time cos lets face it, humans are screwed by the decisions they made using emotions. Once addicted, now freed.

hiatus

2010-09-27T00:16:00.001+08:00

wont be blogging til end of As..at least. lost the motivation to blog lol..and i gotta prepare for my exams also. Many great events but im too lazy to blog abt it. so mahalo til december^^

1/2 prelims

2010-09-18T23:25:00.004+08:00

week 1 is finally gone. got pwned by maths..totally disappointed with the qn that came out. qn 1 was ?? and i skipped it right away. Anyway its time to pia the next half of prelims le! den.. SENTOSA! wooooooo~

and i know what u guys are thinking.. AND no its not. anyway its impossible. such a bad time to get myself involved into relationships now.. moreover, i'll be going NS soon. so i'd rather not waste 2yrs of her life waiting for me to book out every weekend lol. i like younger girls now muahahahahahahahaha~

2010-09-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

i just pwned himym quiz. woo too easy.. all in season 5~

2010-09-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

went to gym again.. just wanna relax b4 tmr's exam.. i saw Mr hou's comment on fb saying this years chem p3 prelim is the easiest so far..so LETS ALL NOT BE AFRAID! we can do it! gonna go sleep real soon..dunno if i can cos i haven slept at 11 for a long time now..kk gonnaa gogogogogogo! to sleep..

2010-09-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

a rather usual day for me.. nth good to blog abt. and here i am blogging. maybe its cos of wanting to blog abt people who have impacted my life, one way or the other.
and i felt stupid to think that i will still think like that.

i will face myself with the facts. i know. i rly rly wan to keep out. yea that sentence as structure probs cos its purposefully done:) getting rid now :D

2010-09-12T00:40:00.002+08:00

went gym this morning. super nice.. studied econs today..super not nice. i study so little.. now only memorise definition=.= average day. Lucky my first paper starts on weds..still got time to spare before judgement day arrives. asodsognerofodinsdnaon! cos i dunno what else to blog. BYE

dayoff

2010-09-10T12:58:00.002+08:00

A day off for me! actually going to go bowling with my bro and his fren de.. den they suddenly change their mind to go watch movie den play lan..ASDFSFCXV. i was so looking forward to bowling session..sian!

tbh i dunno where my life is heading to.

another closure, another beginning

2010-09-06T00:01:00.002+08:00

xing guang chuan qi comes to an end, and nicely done:D i rly enjoyed this season. rawks. And alot of gan chu lor.

The journey is the best part. Its a quote i couldnt agree more. This episode shows that the result isnt as important as going through to get it. I guess its true for everything, including exams. Although results matter, when we look back, what we will never forget is the endless of times spent in libraries, drowning in our notes, and not the results we get. Relationships too. Drama shows always show the part where the guy is wooing the girl, and tbh is the most juicy part of the story isnt it? The marriage part is usually the last episode. HAHA just like himym..super juicy part!

I will definitely enjoy the journey, the "going-through everything" part. k gtg sleep cos tmr meeting my favorite bunch of guys to study!

And another thing, sometimes, a little more effort from u will be much more appreciate than just a one-word answer:)

2010-09-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

"tough times never last, but tough people do" - Robert H. Schuller

saw this quote on lrt platform! super nice, and is SO what i need right now. drinking a little wine with my bro rite now.. and i dun think i can drink much cos when i drink my throat will start to hurt=.= anyway gonna study at home tmr ba..too lazy to walk out from my hse. Hope i wont get distracted by the many distractable stuffs in my hse!! and yan yi ge is getting hotter and hotter..and my cousin say shes like 19-20 yrs old only!! looks so freaking matured leh...!!!!

2010-09-01T23:51:00.003+08:00

Went tp study with the gang..finally having the feeling that i did smth useful today. Gonna keep on striving.. Tmr go breakfast with them!! Wooo:)
After watch himym again, I realize I can't say smth out like last time alrdy, feelafoo!

2010-08-31T21:57:00.001+08:00

Last episode also wan give suspense!!!! Unriddle remains a riddle.. What the shit!! But the show really rocks!! Right ppl!!!

Night out

2010-08-30T23:22:00.003+08:00

Today was simply awesome.. when i was on the way home i was thinking what to write..just too many things. 20 of us went to eat dinner with our last year chinese teacher..cos shes going overseas soon. It's the first time i see most of my class talking to everyone else, cracking super funny jokes all arnd. I love my class ttm..srsly our bonding is one i wouldn't wish for any other. photos taken, stories told, heartfelt moments arrived too.

I just hope our class can stay this united! 09s19, MUG OR DIE!

星光

2010-08-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

This show is getting nicer and nicer! Yan yi ge wooo! Pretty and has an awesome voice.. Totally support her.. Anyway I change my iPhone ytd.. To a new one! Cos of the internet thing.. But now can le! And no more scratches.. Muhaha.. The only sad thing is all my pics are gone:( wk bump it to me!! Tmr is gonna be an awesome day!

2010-08-29T13:18:00.001+08:00

im losing focus. need to study real hard le.. gotta get out of house every weekend.

MUG!

2010-08-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

Best 最伙搭档 ever yet!!!

hi

2010-08-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

hi im back :D i know its long since i post anything..lols. wanna lessen my readers... HAA who am i kidding no one reads it. Anyway..busy week, as usual, and my eye is swollen.. NO i didnt watch too much RA. i dunno why..forced to buy optrex cos its getting freaking irritating. been a good boy thou..doing hw..but the hw i think is little..much more needs to be done if i wanna survive through my As. Every keep says endure the last few months! it will be over in a blink of an eye. I heard this for like the umpteenth time already. yes i know this is motivation for us..but too much of it becomes nagging. i wanna say that it will be over too..but i got too sick of hearing it already. So ppl who are having their As this yr..just know that at least there are 10000+ other ppl suffering the same..it makes me feel better cos im not suffering this shit alone..HAHA. alright imma go sleep now..AND PEOPLE, those who have blog can post stuff ma.. cos i very bored..wan go see see kehpo kehpo... kkcyabye

2010-08-10T21:01:00.002+08:00

i just wasted my last 2 days of my break. i have tons of reasons why i wasted it but its all an excuse. imma fail tmr econs test. i rly rly have to get out of my house everyday if i wan to study. luckily i know whr. going to try out. see if it helps.
And, im like finally going to buy my gc tmr.. was thinking of getting the silver edition. LOL. im a splurge=.=

u know, i just hate ppl who thinks they are always correct, who always argues to prove hes right and not because it is actually correct. and fyi, pls show some modesty. sometimes i cant stand it. i've lost my study mood in just 2 days. help me get it back pls.

season 5 epi 17" of course"

2010-08-09T18:29:00.002+08:00

I JUST PUT THE SONG IN MY BLOG. but i have to press it. Its called Super date. its just simply awesome to hear john randor(ted) singing to Neil Patrick Harris(barney)! :D
But u gotta watch the episode to know what hes singing abt. Anyway, happy hearing!

pandaeyes

2010-08-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

super tired..rly. but luckily i have my himym. It just nvr gets old. i cant laugh...cos my ulcer will hurt.. but still. the most awesomest drama series is himym. nothing can beat it. lols.

It was fun today(yesterday since its past 12) :)

ndp

2010-08-07T16:17:00.002+08:00

i see so many posts on fb abt pj ndp celebration...sounds like a super fun one and i wasnt there :( everyone i know said the celebration was fun. the balloon releasing one was what i regretted the most. thats the only time the whole is doing the same thing at the same time..

And i see ppl saying abt yog breaks now..everyone is having fun and im studying..Lol i wan to have some fun!! Screw A lvls..srsly its a stupid exam that u cant even use to search for work. More worthless than a O lvl cert. And im ok guys. srsly ok. no emo.. thx for the concern but just treat me like u guys usually do:)

gonna slack awhile b4 doing math! math just isnt getting easier...

paranoid

2010-08-05T06:55:00.001+08:00

i guess i was paranoid. i apologize. rly. its great to know u can already can do what i still cant. i had to write this now at this time. just had to.

relieve

2010-08-03T22:50:00.002+08:00

went to sch as usual..went home as usual.. lol im just too lazy to blog anything rite now..the revision is tedious..not the homework, the revision. another 98 more days til the start of A lvls. i just wan it to end quickly.

anyway, seeing u having some family probs, i asked myself if i should interfere. But now i see theres so much ppl caring u, i dun have to bother contacting u. im glad u have frens that are willing to comfort u..Nice, ur getting stronger.

Movieeee

2010-07-31T23:40:00.002+08:00

Went to watch socerer's apprentice today with my cousins:) nice movie.. But not as nice as inception.. Anyway I enjoyed it:) after that I went home to watch The A Team. Super super nice.. Makes me physc about NS even more.. And their body.. Super buff.. And I'm going to study tmr in a library! Yea a library cos I can't study at home when there are so many distractions!! So.. Peace out umbraes! Gonna go sleep now:)

2010-07-31T00:26:00.001+08:00

just watch himym.

"if ur at the bar its this much fun, but if u hang out with me at the airport its THIS much fun" This quote suck big time cos i happen to come across it in the most unthinkable manner from the most unthinkable person to the most unforgettable person. so screw this quote.
but himym still rocks:)

mixed

2010-07-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

today was like ytd's dejavu.. cos it was totally the same lessons at the same time. Clique went to watch dispicable me without me today...cos i got ncc. Ncc wasnt as fun..the mood was like the weather. Anyhow, weekeat dun get too upset over it! its time to take a back seat liao :)

Went home, suddenly felt like gyming..so i gymed,and i slack til now lols. 101 days more to As..start to feel the pressure already..zz. OH YA. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH RANDOR!! ted is a year older! and i heard that he met his wife only at season 8. WOO 3 more seasons to go~

AND AND AND, xiong mao xia (Y). partly becos its directed by jay chou lols.
CANDICE, im hungry!

VA

2010-07-28T21:21:00.002+08:00

went for the vocational assessment today... 7.45 at Hendon camp lol. i was having the mindset that i dont wan commando..and when they ask i say i dunwan to join. Only after it did i realise that it was a wonderful opportunity. Now i cant do nothing but wait for the enlistment letter. i would rather chiong for my NS and strive to do the best, rather than waste 2yrs of my life.

Skipsch

2010-07-27T20:45:00.002+08:00

Srsly.. Just got the letter that I need to go vocational assessment at Henson camp tmr.. Which is at freaking simei! And I have to be there by 7.45.. Only good think is tmr lesson is little so can skip.. Ppl say this thing is for commando de.. So I'm going to fail for tmr commando test! Screw it. I wan to be in officer cadet school.. Not commando.. Gah! As If I dun have enough bad things happening already!!!!

inception

2010-07-24T20:43:00.003+08:00

Went to watch inception today.. the freaking nice show cos its a movie that makes you think.. AWESOME. and 2hrs30min is like only 1hr to me..cos that show is at the climax ALL THE TIME. my heart was thudding all the way LOL. so worth the money.. anyway before going to watch inception, i went to walk walk with my bro at city link..and went HMV to see some nice headset that can cost up to 700 bucks! madness. anyway was looking through the movies and saw familiar shows like vantage point, ipman(not suprising), ironman, transformers, and some shows that i wanna watch, like The Time Traveller's Wife.. nostalgic memories when i saw the titles.. anyway the yog was ongoing so all the facilitators were there...and i saw Peng Yeow! shudnt be suprised but totally physc to see him. Anyway i still wanna watch The Last Airbender and Soccerer's Apprentice..but i doubt i will have the time.

God or not, i wouldn't want to live in a dream.

proud

2010-07-23T20:46:00.002+08:00

The highlight of the day.. NCC SEA COMPETITION CHAMPION!!! sry i just cant wait to talk abt it.. they have surpassed us.. and im glad :) Im proud to be a Cadet Mentor of CCKSS NCC (SEA) because they make me wan to work hard alongside with them.. and the bonds we've made will nvr break. im sure they can maintain to be the champions in the future. Now looking back, im glad i took the jc route. it made me undergo many many things..through it i have a more matured mindset..and i guess i really gotten a little stronger on the other side. Now the current sec 3 cadets are the ones i took charge when they were sec1.. and seeing them having such a great achievement now really makes me happy.. its like being a big brother and seeing my younger bros achieving what i could not then. From the bottom of my heart, im proud to be your senior, im proud i could be of some help to you all, and im proud to be part of the NCC family.

anyway, i went back with my junior today and he asked me," how's u and ur gf?" i said," break le". He asked," How come leh?" i replied,"I have no time to accompany her."

Of course, what i said wasn't the cause of it..but i don't want to relive the moment again. Cos i don't want to be trap again. tbh, i dunno how to face you if i'd ever meet u by accident.

AND WTF JAY CHOU CONCERT! DAWN GOT GO!!! super jealous..and i bet he rocked the concert.

change

2010-07-21T23:11:00.002+08:00

forgot to mention in my blog that my dad has gone china to work already.. since monday morning.. and that leaves me, my bro and my mum at home. Im busy with studying..bro is working..and my mum needs accompany.. so i tend to accompany my mum while shes watching tv..and im doing hw beside her.. and my bro talks more to her now too.. so yea i just dunwan her to be lonely with my dad not arnd in sg. ALSO, he sold his car :( no more free rides from my bro already..well one thing is the car loans and road taxes are all thrown away :) tmr's gonna be a long day.. sleep now byez!

4 more months

2010-07-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

roughly 4 more months and A lvl starts.. just nice the alumni dinner falls on my birthday lols.. i dont think i will go cos im still having exam.. on my birthday!!=.= o well 29th Nov marks the end of my misery..and my class at least.. lols. Endure people..dun feel demoralised cos of mid year results..wake up call is here for a reason! A big change from sec sch; we chose the back seat in sec sch but snatches for the front row in jc, we rush home straight away after schs end during sec sch, but now we look for teacher for consultations. Many more people are now striving to study and i guess its a good sign lol. oh ya b4 i forgot..第二回合我爱你 is an awesome show..go watch if u have the time :) and one more thing.. my ear piece spoil :( no songs =no life. Quitted dota alrdy.. so i really have no more life but studying. im bored too so i dont mind if anyone calls me at night to bring some life back.. but i sleep at 11 LOL. what a joke. kk gtg prepare to sleep! haha byez

dunno

2010-07-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

started the day early, going to ncc for their last kayaking training before the competition..hope they will do us seniors proud. i guess i got caught in the rain a little too much..and head is aching a lil. Anyway im really really confused rite now..i know i shudnt say this right now.. i shud be well over abt it alrdy. hope something happens..or hope barney drops some knowledge to me.

break

2010-07-16T21:17:00.002+08:00

i type out the title, and my father said stop slacking. tiring first week, really. still.. i have to keep moving forward. i used to procrastinate..now when im abt to do that, i keep thinking, " if i dont do it now, it will remain as it is. if i start, at least it has begun." just aim to achieve ur objective. for me, its to score well for my As. i dunwan to look back after getting my A lvl results and regret abt procrastinating. Anyway, theres a highlight for me today; she smiled to me :D but noooooo i dont have a crush on her, maybe just eye candy? lols. and amazingly, shes 1 day older than me :DDD

2010-07-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

Nothing says relax like himym. just cant stop smiling..yea its smiling after u watch it for the 22131354th time and not laughing maniacally. Just wanna say that when life brings you down, only you can bring it back up. dont worry everyone supports u:) dont worry too much and be happy. its tough rite now but lets not stop. keep moving forward..i think i have to give up ncc soon..if not i wont have enough time to study..difficult to let it go.GAH! anyway going to sleep now so nitez..and jyz!

mug or die

2010-07-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

now marks the start of the real hardcore studying..4 months til major exams' arrival. i got my wakeup call from the mid years..and i guess many of us did. results plunged..and i worry. i rly must discipline myself..and i urge the rest of u guys to control too.. my budds, lets work hard tgt for the next 4 months k? i have no more time to meddle into relationships at the moment.. study is the only thing i will spent time on now..no gaming, no staring into blank space for no apparent reason. A little bit of rest is of course required..but thats all to that. i have no time to fall sick too..so im going to spent just a few mins everyday exercising to keep myself healthy. all said, i know it will be tough, but as they say; motivation is what gets you started, habit is what gets you going.

poker

2010-07-10T03:26:00.002+08:00

today got back econ chem and phy..all sucked.. so im not gonna talk abt it. NCC was fun thou..crapping with my juniors and den knock them down >:D thats what seniors do lolsss. Anyway after that went to mintao hse to play texas poker with cy xw dexter yi jing mark...which is awesome thou i lost money. if its not awesome i wouldnt blog at this unearthly hour ritez! lucky cy dad come and fetch us home.. if not another hole in my pocket for taking cab. Another 4 more months til A lvls..and the alumni came back to tell us their stories during their jc2 period. Friendships were put to the test, some were angry at people who didnt study as hard as they did but scored much better.. i dunwan my clique to be liddat... i know we wont be cos we are not back stabbers.. as in we dont fake-stupid..like ask qns that u urself already know.. we'll be best friends like 4ever! i know it. And nth shud be on ur mind except studying rite now. NO BGR!

i forgot how it is to be in a couple :D

空白格

2010-07-05T00:06:00.001+08:00

From xin guang:)

2010-07-04T12:43:00.002+08:00

Good morn- afternoon everyone! just suddenly wanna come up and talk abt smth called anger :D i realise im angered easily..and for the smallest issue.. lols. this isnt good for future communication so guys, if u have the same prob as me..just before u get angry, take a step back and think abt it from a 3rd person point of view.. it helps:) anyway cliques! this wed= end of last paper = buffet at somewhere but u guys are cordially invited.. ok no. ur presence is compulsory! so Xhiwei Wee keat Jun bin Zhiler Candice Dawn Christine ( sry if i left anyone out).. LETS EAT!

small break

2010-07-02T01:42:00.002+08:00

well the last paper of the week is finished..and i have a short break til nxt tues.. anyway i just dun feel like sleeping just yet..although im rly tired rite now.. its times like these u know, like 2am that makes u feel kinda lonely cos everyone is mostly asleep.. bah. i think imgoing to leave u out of my life once and for all. im too tired to carry on thinking abt u liao. not working out for me at all. devoted? stubborn is the more appropriate word to use.

last paper for the week

2010-07-01T00:35:00.002+08:00

gah i cant sleep now cos i slept from 6-8 just now..tmr is maths paper2.. and all previous papers were goners; chem paper 3 cannot finish, phy paper 3 is like im a p5 student doing a A level paper, maths paper 1 was the toughest maths paper i've done yet..econs is always always below my expectations. all these exams rly sucks..mid year that is. but i found out that i can study for 9 straight hours :D but like just for that 1 day in a year or so. lols..i hope u guys are handling much better than i am:)

好久不見

2010-06-28T14:31:00.001+08:00

naisest song that i feel is inside the New Era! hope all of u will like it too! pls press play to hear.. i know ur not THAT lazy:D

2010-06-24T20:41:00.001+08:00

mid year..first time that i feel im really going to flunk it. Starting to get scared only 1 day b4 the exam..some help now would be very much appreciated.

twitterr

2010-06-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

i've just cr8ed a twitter acc so do follow me! nickoteo is my itn(in twitter name). Going there much more than blogspot now cos its just so easy to say abt things and dun even have to make it look kinda lengthy.. u know?

2010-06-21T00:48:00.003+08:00

having math test in another 7.5 hrs...though its a mock one. cant get to sleep..for im having too many pennies of thoughts. i have tons of things i wanna say to lighten the burden im carrying rite now..but i cant do it here.. but i will say this; i will meet that girl that i know i will marry in some very superbly awesome way and that i will tell that story to my future kids in the future of how i met their mother.. because its worth the time. i will lie down on my bed now..and pray that A lvls will come and go quickly and at the lease painful way possible. peace out umbrae.

2010-06-16T16:03:00.002+08:00

Went out today evening.. to attend a wake..and after that we went to ikea to eat dinner..It was my first time there..and was awed by the stuffs there..and ppl say that the meatball there is awesome..so i tried it and yea..its kinda awesome..but not too much of it..cos u will get sick of it. after that just went home.

the promise of being the first person to bring me to ikea cant be achieved. no point calling again and again. lols

end and begins

2010-06-10T00:02:00.003+08:00

finally the sick sick nicholas is abt to go away..i think.. my fever subsided and i think i peed enough for the past 3 days...lols. Anyway hope im ok tmr cos imma go study with xw and wk in np woooo maybe go find mark javen to talk or something... i think i've gotta stop playing com and start hardcore 10hr studying everyday to pass my mid year..and die after that due to exhaustion. either way im dead. so im just gonna die less painfully by start studying now. LOL no more dota. PLEASE? stop tempting me bastards.. gonna go watch karate kid with weinan and james this fri night. LOL Weird rite? weinan? james? well they are my dota buddies...HAHA anyway gotta go sleep now..flu medicine taking its effect rite now.. OH and btw i found another reason to work at a bank...hot chicks :DDD saw 1 today..literally cure my illness... RAWKs..

k gtg sleep now byeez! GD luck to those still having exams this week..but i know u guys dont need it :D

what what?!

2010-06-08T09:58:00.002+08:00

lol sick for 2 days...caught in the flu season man..watching himym to make my laugh...make me forget im sick LOL so emo..haha... anyway gonna continue to watch the most awesome show in the world!!!

let it go

2010-06-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

the funeral is over... and its time to move on. Its things like this that makes u wonder.. what if it was u who's lying in the coffin? that thought really is eerie if u think deeper. Anyway sending my grandma on her final journey was the last and only thing i could do for her..hence accompanying her for the last 3 days.
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OK SO.. now its time to start studying...the thought of it scares me too LOL but my cousin told me some stuffs that kinda motivates me to study hard now..and i wont let anyone down. Promise. Slapbet it. and i see a alot of emo ppl on facebook nowadays..and its all the same problem. Guys to be happier just don't think too much. No point dwelling in the past when u already know it does nothing but hurt u. The only and best advice i can give u is to Let It Go. i know its much easier said than done. But u have to take the initiative to starting letting it go..constantly telling urself its time to move on.. telling urself u have no business in interfering with his/her life anymore. So suck it up and nvr look back. Thats wat i always tell myself.. its still in the process, but nevertheless, it helps. However somethings just stays in ur mind forever even though u dont even want to remember it. I know i know..i've been there. U will have to jam ur thoughts before it goes even deeper, pulling u into an endless bottomless pit of despair LOL. anyway u tell urself everyday, "i want to be happy". Simple and straight to the point. so just let it go...let the anger/sadness go away.

Life

2010-06-02T18:31:00.002+08:00

Today woke up with a very happy feeling cos was gonna go picnic with my jc clique.. But receive a call saying that my grandma has only a few more hours to live.. Totally spoil my day... Thou I didn't spent much time with my grandma, she cared for me whenever I went to visit her... To see her in such state when I got to the hospital was really a shock to me... We spent the final moments of her life with her.. Aunties uncles and cousins all weeped.. Got me wondering some stuffs.. Everyone called to their loved ones to seek comfort.. Guess it's really great to have someone who can comfort once in awhile.. Oh well that's life.. Unfair at certain point in time:)

2010-05-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

Slacking off. Watching 超级星光大道.. Cos I can now:) anyway today was a drag.. Home alone as usual. Did minimal work.. As usual. Anyway just came to blog to put one quote:

it's not that people like to find out the truth, they just don't like to find out they've been lied to.-himym,Barney stinson

exams

2010-05-26T20:53:00.002+08:00

gp exam tmr!!! and i rly dun feel like studying for it. i look at my notes..is like one eyeball absorbs the other one releases. Heck it man im not gonna study le.. i'll deal with it when it come tmr.. i just feel like playing plants vs zombies all of a sudden...cos it rox my world. lucky today's chem spa got pwned by me...i hope.. and my class is like fittest class in pjc?! my class is awesomememe...just as how awesome himym season 5 epi 24 came out and totally make me laugh for 20mins! love it.

k gtg slack i guess........or sleep..or....................

2010-05-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

Tmr = SPA!!!! sian after spa still have to wait til 4.30 for maths..anyway had fun today playing captain's ball with the guys in my class..guess thats how we guys bond! lol. glad so many ppl upp-ed their points in napfa..fittest class is not just a dream! been sick til now thou..sian cos i just feel like cutting my throat and scrap off all the mucus inside.. i know its sounds gross but thats how i feel rite now. OH ya..and today a dog shit right in front of me..it was like looking at me, and shit. Well u dont see that everyday do u. glad i could be able to experience it before i die lols.

im confusededededeedededededededd so i do stupid things :D

busyyy

2010-05-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

got math test tmr..debate tmr..and tons of hw to complete! its times like these when i dun feel like doing any of those...lols.push it through suckers.

Dont show it to me pls.

fb

2010-05-18T17:59:00.002+08:00

facebook? lols so many ppl posting emo emo emo emo comments...stop it dudes..the point of being emo is useless..just throw it away..stop thinking about it.. get urself tgt and move on.

Tats what everyone says to u rite..but how well do u think u can do it? lols..if u've gotten stuck in the dilemma that "u wan it but u can nvr have it" situation like me, just leave it to fate. Fatalism man...everything happens for a reason..and i believe it. So w/e happens, its all predestined.

2010-05-15T02:21:00.002+08:00

wonder why im still awake at this unearthly hour??? cos i was watching movies..and im totally shag now. was waiting too..but i know it would be forgotten..cos it is of the least importance now ..i know :) just wanted to hold on to that glimmer of hope only..just value add that i shouldnt ever go back again. Maybe i should learn ted..write a letter to future me to tell future me whats wrg and whats right.

2010-05-13T21:03:00.003+08:00

Today was rather boring...nth that rly caught my attention or what..cept hw. Now, saying hw is alot is sort of a lying truth. Its not little when u really think abt it, and its not alot if u really really thing abt it..so i dunno..just do i guess... Tmr 6pm den end sch :( sbt..if not is 12.30 END!

still sensitive abt this date

nuts

2010-05-12T21:30:00.001+08:00

SIAO! maths xtra qns so so so so so so so difficult..i have blanks in every qns...and i still haven do chem data based qns:( and im sleepy :((( knglnoanscnsdkznx!!

fk up

2010-05-10T11:15:00.002+08:00

today is the day of my chem spa..and i fell sick.. wanted to go to sch still but the puking just wont stop..puke til the sink was choked.. then i switch to the toilet bowl..and no the toilet bowl wasnt choked. just felt that today was screwed.