Over~

Finally.. 20days of torture and probably the most I will ever study has ended. And tmr starts the fun:) dunno whether I shud do certain stuff or not but i know this; no matter what decision u made, don't regret it cos at that moment, u wanted it the most. I decide to throw away certain stuff, stuff that has been in my wallet for 3 years, stuff that to ordinary people, it's worth few cents but to me, it's what money can't buy. I look at it, reminiscing what I was 3 yrs ago. Memories came to my mind, and it's good memories at least:) but memories nonetheless. Wanted to do smth, wanted to follow what my heart says.. But not for this time. No more can I ever turn back to being 16, no more can I stop what I did, no more can I give u any trust from me. I've sealed up from u, blocked it from u so that no more can I fall into the bottomless pit of heartbroken, pessimistic side of me. I wanted to call u every night, and believe me it was difficult not to do so. I keep telling myself focus on my As first.. But now As have finished. I have no more excuse left to stop me from contacting u. That stuff reminded me of ur handwriting, ur personality and character years ago, the reason why I fell for u. Now nt in contact for so long, I think I no longer know u, physical appearance I would of course know, but other than that I've truly lost ur image already. It's good thou, ex-es shouldn't come in contact again if either one of them still yearns for the other. That's my lesson from my first and unforgettable love. I threw away our tissue, I think u might have forgotten it.. So from here on, I will stop asking abt u, stop ignoring qns abt u, but I will still keep ur secret. Dunno if ur still looking at my blog but if u are, although some part of me still wants u badly, this will be the last msg from to u. Have a nice life.

True story.